Monday, 11 February 2013

Blurring the line

Virtual worlds vs the real world..........
     We use them to escape the real life and whatever we may be running from,  but then they become more real then our real life,  feelings develop... feelings get hurt...People go on  these worlds looking for acceptance and respect, and let me tell you its no different in the virtual world then it is in the real world.  Sure your avatar can be the prettiest one or the most popular but you are still you, your feelings and emotions, thoughts are conveyed through this avatar. People are still fake and full of drama others are quiet and shy.  You got your nerds,jocks,music lovers, art lovers, parents, couples, marriage, people looking for love.

         When I began going on them I was trying to escape my loveless relationship,  All was great in the beginning until I met him.  Perfect...cause that's what i needed someone to love me more then physically, someone that I could connect on a deeper level with.  We met he was sweet and kind and fun, after that found out we didn't want the same things in life after that I told myself nope never again....went a long time before it happened again, this time it was a whirlwind of emotions and craziness not in a bad way, to some my life didn't change that fast but for me it did.... felt like i was on a ride i couldn't stop... left a relationship real life after I had already started one online which wasn't fair to either party, I know that now again I didn't feel loved and really wasn't looking for it this time online it just happened, and it got real to... It was a wake up call to me going.. "whoa what are you doing" you are acting like your mother jumping one relationship to the next cause you feel like you are not strong enough on your own, not being over someone but needing the feeling of someone wanting you.... to say the least it did not end well, and out came the claws and childish high school routine of people blaming and say thing things they know nothing about,  hmm sound familiar for a lot of people I am sure when they were in school.

   So really there is no difference in a virtual world you cant hide what you going through eventually someone is going to find out you are not perfect or you got skeletons in your closet... chances they wont accept them, again you think you will be accepted but you have to be realistic people are out to feed their own needs.  its why they are there, they feel stronger, beautiful, handsome, confident, vibrant, popular.  People will be quick to judge you and your decisions negatively because they don't have to see your true face heck they can just block or delete you and never think twice.  In the real world you cant run from your problems they will always catch up and escaping into a virtual world can do more harm to you then you can even realize, till its to late they have blended together.


S

1 comment:

  1. Lovely, I am to see you still write and I enjoy your input often very creative and mostly from the heart. The virtual world is how it all started for me, had it not been for that it would have taken longer for me to make my stand. I have always been unique to my family and friends, and with that said it helped me to say...Hey this is me and you don't like it, move on then.

    I have been in love there but its a different kind of emotional love that we deal with day to day, I try not to get caught in it anymore. I can't see the person so I avoid it all together.

    S, you are my sweet lil sister and I hope you the best always.
    Love me :)

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