You ever sit and wonder why you are given the things you are given in your life whether they are good or bad. I ask myself that all the time.... why do i need to keep having to have a challenges and obstetrical in my life.
After the past couple days I realized that there is a lot of good in my life, it starts with my flesh and blood who tells me she loves and misses me when i am gone. Who loves me when I am happy and loves me when I am sad. Her smile hugs and kisses make my soul smile, She knows that mommy is sad and at 3 years old she gives me what she can, and doesn't expect nothing back it is a pure innocent emotion one that doesn't make you feel judged or ashamed of who you are.
I look in her eyes and wonder how I got this perfect gift given to me, was it to help to see I am worth it. To help me understand that in someways I am still a child myself. To know I can be loved unconditionally. I wouldn't change her for the world, She is beautiful, loving, crazy and uncontrollable I hope she always feels loved and sees that even with all the hate and craziness in the world, and the hard times she will experience that may seem to last forever she can make it through. That being accepted is by everyone is not needed, as long as she accepts who she is and knows her feelings and emotions are valid, that being different is a blessing not a curse.
This tiny little package of life given to me, was worth every sleepless night, the tears from exhaustion and frustration. for the smiles and the laughs, She brought this wounded heard and soul to life, I just hope I can give her what she has given me.
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