Meaning of the arts to me.

Music and poetry and photography have always been a saving grace for me, a way to express emotion without havering  to actually say things to someone.  This way I can't fumble and stumble and stutter my way through things, but my actual feelings are coming out. It has been awhile since I wrote poetry mostly because for awhile I have been scared of what may come out could be happy, sad,hurtful.... I have had people take offence to what I write,  I don't do it it offend of hurt anyone it is a source of healing, happiness, and venting for me.  Instead I do this blog, it may not be the fanciest blog or about the latest gossip or clothing, but it's mine and these words are my thoughts.  

     Photography really has taken centre stage, when it comes to expressing, there is so much you can do...everything from the colours which could represent a mood or feeling to birds flying in the sky to represent freedom not from someone but ones self, I always try to capture people's faces why because the face says a lot along with the environment it is around,  a lot of my photography recently has been lighter and softer because I am feeling a sense of accomplishment in the fact I'm fighting for my own right to be happy.  I love grunge and darkness as well because that to me is beautiful even when I am sad or feel like I am alone.

Music for a long time has really helped me understand my own emotions and feelings, you might think this is crazy and sounds silly but it really has,   Take my favourite song Iris by the goo goo dolls, I will give you a rundown on what it has said to me. 

And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't wanna go home right now

( I feel that this is talking about a love that has passed either a relationship that has ended or someone has passed away, both of which have happened to me and the reason you don't want to go home is because you don't want to be alone)

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

When sooner or later it's over

I just don't wanna miss you tonight

( this is to me talks about a special moment that you will probably never experience again, whether it be a first kiss, or the last time you hold someone's hand) 

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

( this says I don't fit in, I wish people could see past my flaws and really understand me for who I am as a person, what I feel and how I experience things)

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

( this is that moment when you realize that you have been sad for such a long time, that you forget what it feels like to truly feels like to be happy, feel emotions. )

This song has really put what I feel down on paper and into a beautiful masterpiece of  love, sadness, frustration and misunderstanding, a lot of what I feel. I have been  blessed and thankful for the wonderful gifts we call the arts, without them I would be a lost person with no way of expressing my self in this crazy world like so many others.