Oh sweet love

Oh sweet love... such a burden you are, you heard me a burden like a itch I cannot scratch
Why must you rear your head and grab my attention when I don't want it.

That's right I know what love is I don't need a bitter reminder
you know the couples kissing... the holding of hands the smiles and laughs.... what a funny joke you must think your playing.

Let me tell you something love you can take your joke and shove it right up cupids ass, why you ask because love is not just the good stuff its all the bad stuff, the arguments, the silence after a fight,   the throwing of things but for some reason people only think love is kissing and projecting to the world over social media that your in love, please you think a million people over the internet care that your in love .... honestly half wish they were you and the other half could give less of a damn.. that's the honest truth.

Am I bitter about love.. nope I am a realest about it .... the breakfasts in bed the roses on special occasions rarely happen unless your one of the lucky one to snag a Disney character like man. the love you see in movies you wish you had,that is but a scripted idea about what love should be a mere insight to how someone wishes they could be..... projected on screen with two people who really are not in love... explain to me how that is taken on  how people should think love is.

I have been in love,  hard to believe i know... I experienced the fast heart beat the sweaty palms, the rush of emotion. felt like I had just run an emotional marathon, for what  to feel self concise about how i looked in bed... was i to fat... do i smell ... am i doing this right?... will this person still love me in the morning..  the insecurity if i was the "one" ....  since that is what you hear "you are the one for me"  what exactly does that mean... the one to what cook your breakfast? do your laundry? save your soul..

listen i cant even save myself let alone you, i mean look at me all insecure in how i look when it shouldn't matter cause you are here with me, oh but it does cause love is mostly on how someone looks and not about what the person has to offer on the inside.....but only in what they can offer you....

A therapist mostly.... from all the broken hearts and anger one has on the inside from love...hoping you can fix whats broken... a person cant fix that for you. we are like babies when it comes to love suckling a the tit for nurturing... hoping someone loves us like our mothers do accept us fully as we are....

Love... love ...love tis a cruel joke you play, but this person right here will no longer fall for it no.... not this one.